May: 01/03/22 The Re-evaluation.

Yet again, I am still at that mad conflicting stage where If our coursework was in sketchbooks I would have probably ripped apart my sketch books and restarted numerous amount of times. However as much as my blogs will possibly not make a steady flow of sense up to this point, I want to show a progression and conflicting thought process and use this blog to understand my self and my thought process when it comes to my art with my Masters. I have many times avoided doing coursework because of the deep underlining issue of not finding inspiration to create art, but the desire and passion for art is still there. So for this, I am going to be using the next few months just to experiment with some art and maybe just allow my self a clear detachment from art it self, because I believe I am trying to force a idea or concept for creating art which makes me not want to do it even more. Something that I also need to do is look back at my blogs and perhaps categorise them. From development, to practical to also making a sections of my blogs that I feel are useless but perhaps are needed there to show an idea of where I am mentally a long side my work.

But Little background information about me that may be useful in the long run.

This month, I am temporarily / Leaving my job in the Dementia based nursing Home and joining the NHS on the cancer services ward. This for me is a huge step of working progression but also I'm not someone who likes change and it always comes as a shock for me. So the aim the next few months is to just get my bearings around everything and allow the art practices come to me naturally than feel forced or even conflicted on ideas of what t produce